Why Should It Be Easy?
Obviously, my life is in a little transition right now. Soul searching can only go so far. You figure you are part of this planet, this generation, this future…you have a job to do. Or at least I feel that way.
I put together a resume that I thought was pretty ok. Now I find that competition in IT is so much more these days, that my resume probably doesn't stand as much of a chance as I’d hoped. I lack the funds to pay for a professional rewrite, so I will just have to do my own research and hopefully come up with my own marketing scheme that sells me well.
I’m not intimidated by marketing myself professionally. I am not easily intimidated overall, and I know there are a lot of qualities I possess that I would want in an employee of my own. And I also know that I won't use this blog entry as some sort of self-righteous vindication for my own benefit. Ha ha.
Even though I might be an illegitimate, but loved, self motivated product of the Chicago Public School Systems who worked two full time jobs every chance I had, put myself through college twice, not easily because I worked and they held that against me but I didn’t stop, accomplished everything so far by my own determination not by any easy route whatsoever, decided to follow my own path in life even though it was a risk…..and why in the hell do I still have so much student loan debt…and why am I STILL so friggin’ tired?
Let me take a breath. And let me ask why nothing is ever easy in my life? Why have I always had to fight so hard for every.single.thing I have? Why isn't ANYTHING EVER EASY FOR ME?
I have the answer, believe it or not.
The reason why nothing is ever easy for me is simple enough - because I never take the easy way out. Furthermore, I never believe in settling. I truly believe that everything worth having, is worth some work to get it. And it takes work to keep it. Believe me, I still stop to smell the many roses along the way and never, ever forget what I have today - in this minute - right now. But I will still be realistic and know that there are still so many things in the future. I am part of 'my own' family now, and have more responsibility than just my own dreams.
And you know what? It’s even more the reason to keep reaching for the next thing.
