The World According to Angela

Being that yesterday was Mother's Day, now would be a good time to have this entry.  I am a mom to four incredible children.  That makes me happier than I could ever adequately describe.  Sometimes people hear 'four children, comprised of triplets plus one,' and it strikes terror in their hearts.  But they just don't understand.  It's a dream come true for me.

It's hard for people to understand what infertility does to a person unless you've experienced it firsthand.  You can imagine how hard it may be to want a baby and have problems achieving this goal, but you cannot understand how it tears up your very soul.  Most people take procreation for granted.  After all, you hear all the time how druggies have babies, how babies are abandoned, how many people are completely unworthy of being a parent.  Surely people who have their acts together, have a good marriage and a stable environment for a child would have no issues, right?  It just wouldn't be fair.

It's not.  It's worse than unfair.  In fact, it makes you question the very nature of the universe.  It makes you resent your own body.  It makes you a basket case.  It hurts worse than you could even describe.  And it is something that will stay with you your whole life.

But I won.  At the point they told me I was expecting triplets, there was nothing left for me to feel other than joy.  I didn't even care about any hardships of caring for three babies at once; I was just elated to finally be on my way to having my own family.  Besides, I always wanted a big family anyway, so this would get me there quick!  ;-)

Sure, there were hard times, days I thought I would collapse, moments I would wonder what I was doing.  But that Mother's day 5 years ago when I had three healthy and happy babies, I couldn't have felt luckier.  How incredibly blessed was I?  Then Mother's day last year had me with yet another miracle.  One I had always hoped for, but thought could never happen, yet there she was.  The one who completed it all and was the catalyst for more change in my life.  Because of her, I was able to go down to part time work from home and be there for so much more of my children's lives.  Sure, with that came sacrifices, but in the end, it's all worth it.

So now here was my 6th Mother's day as a mommy.  Know what?  It just keeps getting better.  No doubt parenting is the hardest job in the world, but it's also the best by far.  I truly enjoy my children.  I cherish the time spent with them.  I love the little people they are becoming.  I am in awe daily that I was trusted to raise these little individuals.  I love being their mommy more than anything else in the world.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Mother's day.  And I sincerely hope you are enjoying motherhood as much as I am.